Out Of The Blue.

Hello

fish — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 19:55:47 +0000

Woah. I have not been on here for zillions of years.
I no longer look anything like my picture. Gravity has been righted for one thing. I’m now at New college doing, amoungst being told i look ridiculous by Aleks, Textiles photography and english lit. Exiting. I also work at the Link Centre cafe. I have a namebadge and a DuDuDeeDu. ’Yes sir. No Sir. Stop ringing the fucking bell sir, or im going to knot your arms behind your head. Yes, lattes are always like that. Well, no i can’t top it up you’ve drunk most of it. Ok, less froth. More froth. Stronger. Weaker. YOU KNOW WHAT FUCKING MAKE IT YOURSELF THEN!!’ Im joking of course. I normally grit my teeth and make Ben serve before I explode into that last sentance. In all honesty though I like my job. Most days
I’ve been accepted at Swansea and Bath and Winchester unis to do textile courses. I think im going to go to swansea. House by the seaside. Hurray. Its all very very scary and I dont know wether the feeling in my Stummy is honest to god dread or exitement. Life is good.
I am no longer with josh. In any way shape or form. He broke my heart and im really lucky ive had such good help putting it back together. (seriously, my amazing friends should get jobs being all the kings men, they’d sort humpty dumpty out straight away) Long story short he made me feel worthless and shitty for about two months then dumped me by text the day before my english exam (im re-taking it and am expected high marks) Then I snapped and punched him in his bullying face. It felt so good
But yeah. thats that as far as im concerned. Right now im on the prowl, so watch out men folk!
I realise that this sounds mental and rambled and is not very well written. You are just going to have to be gratefull for the fact that ive written anything, as i have to get ready to netball it up big time.

there will be more, better thought out stuff on here. I have re-caught the blogging bug xx

once again, im not particularly filled with happiness.

fish — Wed, 23 Jan 2008 11:11:53 +0000

Josh has deleted all of the photos of me.

he also seems to hate spending time with me, it must be with a group of people.

I am constantly going up and dowm up and down moodwise.

He comments other girls, leaving them kisses and asking for their msn adresses. I get ‘meh, cnt be bthred if frase isnt going’

Am i just fighting the inevitable/ Being blind and stupid/ making a mountain out of a molehill?

Im honestly asking. i need some help, please.

thanks x

Ladies and Gentlemen, sadness and anger have overwhelmed me at this particular moment.

fish — Thu, 27 Dec 2007 21:56:02 +0000

My boyfriend has not left me a comment or message or picture comment for over 2 months. and yet he feels it is appropriate and nessecary to comment imo's picture with 'Oh my fucking god u r beautiful xxx'.

great.

Also, my friends are at laura's party which im not invited to and im home alone.

fucking hate laura oliver. and imo. and josh. fucking the lot of them.

fuck.

Fat people, thin people.

fish — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 17:12:59 +0000

jesus. ‘oh there is nothing we can do we are either too fat or too thin’ - dimwitted person in article.

you are wrong. there is no ‘perfect body’ but there are fat people (beth ditto’s whole i think big women are beautiful and i hate skinny people thing….Beth, darling i understand what you are trying to say, but you are fat. not ‘normal’, FAT.) and thin people. (kiera knightly ‘oh i just eat what i like’ no you dont. you are too thin for a woman of your height and age and you work damn hard to keep it that way. you fecking liar.)

thats it really. if you are too thin, stop moaning about it. eat something. be happy. size 10, 12, 14, 16.
anorexia is not sexy. stop prasing them. they need help, it is a DESEASE. is aids sexy? what about cancer? thought not.

if you are fat, loose weight. its not the government’s fault. if you are young it IS your parents fault. if you are old, it IS your fault. exersise. stop eating. shut up.

also, HEAT magazine; size 10 is not ‘really curvy’, unless you have a waist like a breadstick. size 10 is still quite thin.

im in photography. i love abbi (Y) xxxxxxxxx

Fat people, thin people.

fish — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 17:12:45 +0000

jesus. ‘oh there is nothing we can do we are either too fat or too thin’ - dimwitted person in article.

if you are fat, loose weight. its not the government’s fault. if you are young it IS your parents fault. if you are old, it IS your fault. exersise. stop eating. shut up.

also, HEAT magazine; size 10 is not ‘really curvy’, unless you have a waist like a breadstick. size 10 is still quite thin.

im in photography. i love abbi (Y) xxxxxxxxx

Christianity is hypocracy

fish — Mon, 29 Oct 2007 23:07:28 +0000

In fact, religion itself is a terifying ironey. (i know i cant spell)
i have absolutely no problem with anyone who holds religious beliefs, in fact i respect you, so long as you don’t try and force the will of your particular god onto me.
The entire concept is believing in something no one can ever prove is right, or even working.
This is fine, faith is all well and good.
But i hate the way christianity in particular (hence the title) covers itself so well. for example, they (the mysterious christian masses who hide in bushes and shake crosses at people) say that if you Believe, you will be rewarded because God loves you. Oh, and if nothing happens, it means you’re not Believing enough. And oh yes, there was a great paradise in which Adam and Eve lived in, but they betrayed God; this is why there is famine, and pain. They have blamed all of the worlds problems on a Fairy Tale in which a snake tells a naked woman not to eat a magic apple. I feel the need to quote Family Guy here: ‘Yeah well the bible also says a senior citizen builds a boat big enough to fit all of the worlds animals in it, and then sails around the flooded earth’
Too true, Brian, too true.

The entire concept of god is basic brainwashing. Its just stories told to children to make them conform to the views of stubborn, sexist old men; who themselves were conformed to the same rules.

I believe it is all bollocks. I would gladly welcome any arguments people have to offer on this subject, but not from abbi, i would be distracted by her brests.

fish — Sun, 01 Jul 2007 23:40:12 +0000

i miss marmy :’(

i know hes probably dead, but i just want to know where he is. i want to bring him home.

i miss you marmite. come home. love you.

day 7. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

why busses and lazer people suck

fish — Tue, 19 Jun 2007 14:17:34 +0000

okay, lets be honest. we all though james was crazy when he complained that the busses were out to get him. well i now believe him! busses are out to get us all! i had to go into school for like an hour (fucking pointless) then i was gonna catch the bus to josh’h house. i have never caught a bus on my own before. ever! so i ran to shauna and asked “fjgerugege which bus takes me from purton to cricklade??!!!”and shauna said ‘the 53′ then we lovingly woke up frankie and made her tell us what time the bus came. and she said ‘11, 12, 1′ i said thank you frankie, go back to bed

so, at 10. 45 i was down at the bus stop. where i fucking remained for an hour and a half. so the bus must have come ridiculously early. bastard. so i sat on the wall, not moving, on my own. i saw an amazing 12 minis, 3 yellow cars, 2 old women on scooters and a mobile library. then josh came and rescued me. bless him

so i agree with james, DAMN THE BUSSES, DAMN THEM ALL TO HELL.

then, this morning, i went to my lazer appointment to remove my birthmark. but the lazer people had fucked up so i had to make another appointment. buttt, this was really a good thing because i wasd told that the lazer would cause severe bruising which would not be gone before the prom. so thank you, but damn you lazer people.

why im confused by dreams

fish — Thu, 31 May 2007 00:02:36 +0000

well apparently all dreams mean something, in some wierd random way.

okay, well tell me what this means. last night i had a dream.

in my dream it was just a normal school day, exept elliot tilley cane to school drerssed in white shoes, white trousers and a white shirt. we all asked him why he was wearing them, but he wouldent tell us. anyway, the school was putting on a production of beauty and the beast in the courtyard outside drama. a proffesional company was performing, and ashley green and jenna norton were singing in it. me and roya and lyssy were watching it, but halfway through we went backstage. the whole cast seemed to be large men with shaven heads, but they were dressed up in the costumes of the characters. me and roya and lyssy jumped out from the wings and started to beat up the men. then everyone shouted at us and mr caulder started to list the wines he was going to drink to get over this, because it was going to cost him money, and he needed wine to decide what our punishment would be. whilst he was shouting at us, me lyss and roya decided to run away. but although we were running our fastest, we were going really slow, like running through water. so the rest of my dream was us doing our water run, trying to getr away.

figure that one out then.

me fail english? thats unpossible.

fish — Tue, 22 May 2007 22:47:14 +0000

fewfgwaut khuaeo ;tduj><

fucking gurrrrrr! for two years now we have been annotating poems. lots of poems. violent poems (not my bussiness) good poems (armetige and the man he killed) culture poems (’cluster one’ and ‘cluster two’) and shit poems (duffy’s i hate men but live in a house with lots of cats’ poetry)

we have also made notes on Lord Of The Flies, actually quite a good book, we have compared a bunch of apparently homosexual boys to war, christianity, evil eeeviil mankind and many other thing besides. we compared a dead parachutist to the evil within everybody for christ’s sake! IT IS A DEAD PERSON WHICH HAS FALLEN FROM A PLANE. NOT A BEAST, NOT A SYMBOL, JUST A BLOODY DEAD BLOKE!

anyway after making all this annotation, these comparisons and ideas (some of which by the way i thought up on my own, good pionts to, like really deep and interesting, only to have miss mario shout out ‘oh, this is a good piont’ *everyone writes down my idea*’thanks georgia’ *georgia somehow refrains from stabbing self in eyelids* ‘hahahaha its okay’) WE ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TAKE THEM INTO THE BLOODY EXAM THEY WERE FOR!!!!!

WHO’S FUCKING IDEA WAS THAT? WHAT A GREAT INLOOK ON THE FAMED BRITISH EDUCATION SYSTEM!

i also still cannot eat proper food. i have to cut up chips¬¬

and im spent xx